I gave birth a year ago and I'm still adjusting to having 3 tiny humans.
It feels like I'm just putting out fires
It feels like I'm the mom of the 3 little pigs- they're constantly making messes because they're building a house out of blankets, boxes or kitchen utensils
It feels like I'm exhausted all the time
It feels like my heart may burst from loving them so much
Beckett is our bonus baby. The pregnancy was incredibly hard, I was out on pelvic and bed rest at 20 weeks when we found out that I had placenta previa.
After having such a difficult birth with Kai, I felt some sort of relief when I was told that a surgical birth was necessary.
No inductions, no passing out, less room for error.
I learned about gentle cesareans and talked to my dr about it. While the hospital where I delivered doesn't have gentle cesarean procedures in place, they are definitely moving in that direction and were very accommodating.
The doctors talked to me the entire time during the procedure, they allowed my husband to be there and take pictures (I have a picture of my uterus! 😆), baby never left my side and I was able to start breastfeeding and do kangaroo care right away.
It was such a beautiful birth and a healing experience for me.
He was born April 17, 2015 I don't remember the time and he weighed 8lbs 12 oz.
I'm writing this in between folding laundry and while the kids are watching Pokemon on Netflix.
My life is not how I thought it should be, I never thought I'd go through infertility for 8+ years, struggle with a gluten intolerance, find out I no longer had a job after the birth of my second baby, go through physical therapy to be able to walk on my own again, post partum depression and a whole lot of other trials.
My life is amazing though! I've learned so much about myself through those trials, I've learned that I want to be around babies and help caregivers (so I became a Babywearing educator), I learned I have a voice and I am beautiful (so I got involved with a beauty company that vows to uplift, empower and validate women) and I've learned that no matter how many messes my piglets make, this love them more than words can express.
